Join me for 12 days to spend more time with God, our Heavenly Parent.
This is day one.
“The secret of the kingdom of God is given to you, but those who are outside everything comes in parables, so that they may see and see again, but not perceive; may hear and hear again, but not understand; otherwise they might be converted and be forgiven.”
This is a day of hope. A day of hope to do better, to make our relationship better again. I want, really want to make this better than ever. First, I need to make a confess: I was not doing all the efforts to live with you – I felt helpless a lot of times, though I have never abandoned hope. I am grateful for your commitment, You have never given up on me…
I used to think I know more than others about You, and I really wanted to “enlight” everyone. It turns out, the years were inevitable to come to learn how to listen and watch more. You taught me how to be more silent and self-aware. Sometimes in a very hard way, out of love. Being sick can be Your care and love, being challenged can be Your trust, when everything is so overwhelming and feels unbearable – these I have learned from You, though, I doubted when others shared their stories how all of these could be good and great. But You had the patience for me to see the reality…
And so I did. There were memorable times to feel being more and more alive, closer to You, experiencing the warmth and care. You have saved me and most importantly You have saved my children. When there was no hope, when there was no way to help, You saved my son, You saved my daughter. Just like you have been saving so many throughout the years of separation between You and us, lost ones…
My mouth can’t pray now. It’s weird, but not unusual these days. It is like we share our hearts without words. I can only pray for others, to have a chance for them to really get to know You.
Father, my body is tired, but my soul is awake.
I am looking forward to the next day with You!