This is again a letter to You, although, You can read my heart easily, I also would like to express my desire to re-connect, to be one again with You.
I’m sure, You remember, there were times, when we, You and I spent meaningful and valuable hours together. I wish to say there were days but it wouldn’t be true. I was never able to give You shelter in my heart even for 24 hours. I just so easily can sink back to my routines, my vain old self – though I always feel I could finally shake that off for good, for ever…
I’m longing for the times to be together with You, Father, not just what we had, but what is yet to come. I’m sure, the best is yet to come…
I might not have as many years here on Earth as much once…
I have started a new prayer blog, Prayers for Everybody as a part of my spiritual journey.
I am going to write and share 210 public prayers for you here.
Partly, because everybody deserves a prayer and partly because I also need to grow inside, so, that is a challenge for me, too.
If you happen to have some time to read, follow and share these, it will make me more accountable and transparent in front of Heavenly Parent, you and even myself.
I do hope, these prayers and words will find you in the right time and right place.
One of the greatest contributions of the internet to our lives is that we can get to know the world and its reality more and differently than it is being told to us and we can discover whole new ideas and fantastic people all around the globe.
I’ve been reading a lot of blogs since the start of As I Can See. For quite some time one of them is SueAnn Porter’s and one thing is for sure, her devotion to God appears in her writings and lifestyle as well as her pursue of happiness.
She was kind to make time for this interview, so meet SueAnn Porter, an honest daughter of God on life, faith, challenges and answers and a view on our world today!
1. Dear SueAnn, How are you doing these days? Have you made any New Year’s resolution which hard to keep?
Honestly, I gave up on New Year’s resolutions many years ago.
As you know, I have published an ebook named “Arm Wrestling with Pharaoh” which looks at the Book of Exodus, and the story of Pharaoh and Moses. It compares how we go through situations today, when it looks like all hope is lost, but God has an answer.
Right now, it’s only available as an eBook. I am looking into having it printed in paperback.
I have started working on a Time-Travel novel. I am involved in a new writing group, which has been very helpful.
2. You have faced with various challenges in your life. Have you ever felt there is no way to continue, yet, you went on?
There were many times I felt that there was no way to continue – depression was overwhelming to the point of suffocation. I just kept going.
3. Is there any definite moment when we can clearly feel the presence of God, helping us? When were your most definite moments?
When I really stop, be still, then I can sense God’s presence strongly. The world keeps going faster and faster. God lives in Eternity and it’s a much easier pace. When we connect with Eternity, we find peace in God.
4. Reading your blog it is obvious you are deeply committed and grateful to your spouse. How did you two meet?
We met at work. This is a good place to meet someone because you know he has a job! Also, he was taller than me, which was important.
5. After you realized, you are the on to each other, how did you gain wisdom and strength to stay together? What advice could you offer for young couples to persevere?
We live in a throw-away society. If you don’t like something, you trade it in and get something new. In marriage, unless there is abuse or adultery, I don’t believe God really wants us to give up so easily. God has answers for us, especially when we can’t figure it out for ourselves.
6. The world around us has been tremendously changing. Do you think it will slow down or more radical and fundamental changes will come?
I don’t think the world will slow down, but as individuals, and especially as Christians, we will learn to find peace through God living in us, and slow ourselves down. The pace of the world will keep getting faster.
7. A lot of people feels, old times were golden, despite the facts, we have the best medicine and ways of communication these days. Would you rather live in a different era?
There are good and bad to all eras. I think what people miss from the “old days” are that we did slow down. Everything was closed on Sundays. We visited grandparents and cousins. Now, we compete with cell phones. Also, I think kids had instilled in them a sense of right and wrong, and manners. Also the schools taught History, Mathematics and English grammar. Many kids don’t know this information.
I think we are further ahead with race relations, although there still needs to be improvements. Women have better opportunities. And yes, it is fun to communicate with someone on the other side of the world through the internet!
8. Let’s turn to lighter things. Which is your favourite secret recipe? Care to share it with the readers?
I’m really not much of a cook. I have no secrets here.
9. If there was an imaginary list of the most beautiful and positive things in life what would you add to it and why?
I’m the kind of person who would rather be in the mountains than at the beach. There is something about the babbling of a stream that is the ultimate beautiful sound to me. I would invent a Theme Park where people could rent cabins in the middle of the stream. Okay, I might be the only customer but who knows?
10. Nowadays, almost everyone has a certain kind of understanding about the Afterlife. What is yours? Do we really cease to exist, or it is a one way street, or there is a connection between the earthly and spiritual life?
I believe in the Afterlife. We are spirit beings in flesh bodies. While the body dies, the spirit lives forever. There are only two options for the Afterlife: Heaven or Hell. There is no Purgatory. Jesus paid the price for all of our sins to be taken away, so that we would be able to enter Heaven. But we need to believe on Jesus, and more than that, we need to ask Him to come into our life and take over. When someone sincerely repents of their sins, and asks Jesus to come into their life, something spiritual happens. The pure life of God comes to live in us. The same power that raised Jesus from the dead lives in us. This is called being “Born Again.” Jesus said that He is the way, the truth, and the life, and that no one comes to Father God except through Him.
I know that many people believe that there are many ways to God, but I don’t believe this at all. God is King of the Universe, and if He wants people to enter Heaven by Jesus, then we need to follow His way.
11. Life these days looks pretty dark. Do you feel it was better and brighter in your childhood and we are doomed now? What future do you think our children will have? Do you think equality and mutual understanding, care and support will be manifested? Will people live for the sake of others?
I think each generation is different, and they are created to adapt to their time frame. I think that certain things get better, and other things get worse as time goes on. I don’t think we will ever reach true equality and mutual understanding, but we can keep moving towards it. We shouldn’t give up.
12. At last, let me ask you which areas do you think ought to be helped the most in the world? Who can do it? Are we really “too small” for them?
We need to do much more for our Veterans. They should be our number one priority.
We also need to help school children. The money that is wasted in the education system for administrators is abominable. Many kids need to have breakfast at school because they don’t get it at home. Also, school buses are needed for kids that live ½ mile away, instead of a mile away.
God has granted me the chance to be reborn – again.
This wasn’t the first time.
The miracle is still flowing through my cells. Minute by minute I can acknowledge the strength.
When you feel life is coming back to you and you have this sense of strange feeling of guilt that you haven’t earned it. And you feel it is kind of right.
I can type again. Probably, I can write again.
I could cook yesterday.
I could carry the bags from shop the day before yesterday.
I was able to breath a few days ago.
It is still strange, an unusual mystery, how easily it can be forgotten and looked obvious that even lifting an arm was a distant desire not known for sure ever to be fulfilled – and now it is normal.
How things can loose their meaningfulness so easily in our life?
Like they had no value at all for us.
Vanity is an ever-existing condition it seems.
Indeed, as there is progress, we deem to forget priorities which were reset in a way we felt were the truth.
Now, a race started again: which minuscules could tramp over and misguide my presence, derail my consciousness to plastic reality?
Can I be the king of the fake world? Can I be in that competition, with even greater strength? It feels like that, every single moment which I spend with muting my inner voice and reasoning myself: surfing, watching, listening, not-praying and self-treating are worthier ways.
I know, God hasn’t saved me for this. It looks, a rebirth doesn’t make me different from what I used to be, not in an instant, not without growth.
Though, healing is also a process.
Maybe I also should be more accepting with myself. I should let myself to heal inside, heal from the world, from the life I’ve lived.