12 Days with God – Day Nine

Join me for 12 days to spend more time with God, our Heavenly Parent.

This was the ninth day.

“How happy are you who are poor: yours is the kingdom of God. Happy you who are hungry now: you shall be satisfied. Happy you who weep now: you shall laugh.”
Luke 6:21

 

This was the day of change.

I was heading towards to You in this path, again, and I hoped to find the straigthest path, not an elliptic one, again…

…and so the day became days, loosing sense on routines. After a while, days melted into evolving time and space. Memory of Your past echoed in me as I was loosing sight and detoured. You have created time and space, this world of dreams, hopes and possibilities – how could You prevent Yourself from changing, when everything went astray?

I realized, Your determination has always been greater than the pain You have suffered, Your hope is a constant one, Your acts for humankind haven’t ceased despite all the things we have been doing against the Ideal.

This is what I learned from You, that’s what I need to do: improving always, and not changing in doing, ceaselessly love through actions, and hoping Heaven on Earth will be on Earth and Heaven soon.

I must change to be unchanging in love and dedication, just like You, Father.

Thank you for teaching me, Father, even when it hurts.

Your son,

 

-JD-

12 Days with God – Day Eight

Join me for 12 days to spend more time with God, our Heavenly Parent.

This was the eighth day.

The spirit of the Lord has been given to me, for he has anointed me. He has sent me to bring the good news to the poor, to proclaim liberty to captives and to the blind new sight, to set the downtrodden free, to proclaim the Lord’s year of favor!
Luke 4:18-19

 

This was the day of life.

I was looking forward to this day. I was looking forward to feel You, I was looking forward to see You in every meetings, I was looking forward to spot You in the crowd. I was looking forward to get to know what was what You wanted to teach me today.

I was not able to keep the right mindset all the time, I had to warn myself, and I failed to realize in time every so often the sudden challenges are You gifts to receive a greater Blessing. An interrupted little to nothing sleep should have been felt Your care, not a headache, an immature youngster’s action could have been experienced as Your interactive historical tv-channel, I also should have changed my schedule when I was needed by one of the most beloved ones instead of loosing actual priorities.

Besides, I was aware of a teaching You gave me, and I acted upon, giving more from myself, as I used to and I supposed to do. It felt good and another way to improve and grow – for the most beloved ones, and through them the whole world.

I felt lonely.

I don’t know how and why. It might have a similar experience when long time ago Your pain was revealed during the time creating art. I still remember the endless, salt streams, the inner travel beyond time and space and the heart I felt, Your heart, seeing how everything was falling apart…. I felt Your loneliness and eager desire to accomplish and restore everything, becoming content and happy. I wish I could give You this. I would grant You it in an instant. Maybe, one day, soon, You will have the chance to accept it…

What will the next day bring, I can’t know. Either a challenge or tranquility, I’ll invite You for everything, each moments of my life, please, be a  part of my life, Father!

Your son,

 

-JD-

12 Days with God – Day Seven

Join me for 12 days to spend more time with God, our Heavenly Parent.

This is the seventh day.

Again, as one man’s fall brought condemnation on everyone, so the good act of one man brings everyone life and makes them justified. As by one man’s disobedience many were made sinners, so by one man’s obedience many will be made righteous. When law came, it was to multiply the opportunities of falling, but however great the number of sins committed, grace was even greater; and so, just as sin reigned wherever there was death, so grace will reign to bring eternal life thanks to the righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ our Lord.

Romans 5:18-21

 

This was the day of promises.

Father, I’ve been thinking of You a lot today, I was wondering how this day will unfold itself, I felt a growing curiosity inside of me, it was a pure, child’s love and interest, and I had completely forgotten how wonderful and uplifting it could feel. Though, it was not a rebirth, some of my cells radiated the light of Your love, from the inside of me. It is so nice to remember, it was today and it wasn’t a dream…

…this day wasn’t a perfect day, although overcoming challenges were mostly successful, I still have this unexplainable understanding in my heart and mind, every cells of my body: in Heaven there aren’t anxiety, annoying events, carelessness, laziness, narrow-mindedness, in Heaven, still I believe it in forever, nobody feels lonely and abandoned, betrayed and neglected, misused and forgotten. If this is the world of reasoning around us, I can’t be a part of it…

…how often I was called as starchild, now, I understand, they all felt and experienced Your love through me… a connection might have taken way longer time to establish…

Father, what is Your attitude towards broken promises?

How can You cope with falsity, enmity, betrayal and blaming? You have never ever done anything wrong, still… How can You trust again?

Night is late, dreams have been cast, I have wanted to serve and be energetic with serving others and being with You. Now, I need to lay my head, my body needs to take a rest, will You join me, Father?

Can You join me, Father, truly and forever?

Your son,

 

-JD-

12 Days with God – Day Six

Join me for 12 days to spend more time with God, our Heavenly Parent.

This is the sixth day.

His mother and brothers now arrived and, standing outside, sent in a message asking for him. A crowd was sitting around him at the time the message was passed to him, “Your mother and brothers and sisters are outside asking for you.” He replied, “Who are my mother and my brothers?” And looking around at those sitting in a circle about him, he said, “Here are my mother and my brothers. Anyone who does the will of God, that person is my brother and sister and mother.”

Mark 3:31-35

This was the day of truth.

How shall I do this? I should always ask You for an advice, instead of my stubborn ideas and concepts. Though, personal experiences can be useful, after a while they do not last. In my life, You have always given me what I asked from You, and it took me so long to understand: what You would like to give me might not be the same. It is a Blessing now to know the difference…

…You led me to the path of healing yesterday, and the keys of happiness and peaceful unity were in my hands. I struggled to use them wisely, and I felt sorry for the wasted time whenever I realized I could not focus on the gift of time and space You Blessed me with, being with my children and family. Of course, so many are my siblings and feel to be in a way my children, too – and they need more attention and care. Who should I love more with time and action? Those, who give me constant and ever growing love, respect, compassion and care or those who betray, abandon, leave and act selfishly? Your example, Jesus’ example, all the chosen ones’ example show the latter is more important in order to create Heaven on Earth than those who are worthy to enter and live with pure heart. It is not about righteousness, it is about solving this inexctricable world: all the issues and inherited resentments can be transformed only by care, compassion, volunteer sacrifice, love beyond our own need, with understanding and support by our loved ones.

Who are the children of God? Are those Your children at the holy places, in the holy robes, praying, meditating? Are those who always keep on helping others? Are those who ceaselessly improve themselves and others’ circumstances? Are those who excel in science and scriptures? Everybody is equally important for You, even the farthest one among us. As a True Parent, You have been focusing to reach out each and every one of us, especially, the farthest ones. None of us is going to Heaven without any of us. You love Your whole family. Even, when we are lost, You lift us up.

Thank You, Father, persevering and not giving up on us!

I hope, one day I can lift You up with my actions and heart!

Your son,

 

-JD-

12 Days with God – Day Five

Join me for 12 days to spend more time with God, our Heavenly Parent.

This was the fifth day.

Yahweh saw that the wickedness of man was great on the earth, and that the thoughts in his heart fashioned nothing but wickedness all day long. Yahweh regretted having made man on the earth, and his heart grieved. “I will rid the earth’s face of man, my own creation,” Yahweh said, “and of animals also, reptiles too, and the birds of heaven; for I regret having made them.” But Noah had found favor with Yahweh.

Genesis 6:5-8

 

This was the day of balance.

The greatest challenge is to be happy always. Sometimes it seems and feels, the joyous moments pass as quickly as they arrive, leaving only a reminiscence. The sharp teeth of reality bite the delight until nothing remains. How could You survive and exist seeing the reality of Your fallen and estranged children? I only can conclude that logically it was your mere hope that Your dream will become fruitful…

Actions, deeds are the foundation of love, life, lineage, lasting happiness, lasting fortune. It is simple to climb up a mountain, since time to time we walk down in a steep or declivous path – and that one is completely normal, acceptable, since it is the time for gaining strength, relaxing, meditating and rededicating. It is never a failure to let life be balanced. Anyone, who is willing to go up, ought to be ready to go down, too. Knowledge, trust, self-esteem are tools to act, and true dreams are the roots of the hopes in life.

Can my body be enough good for my intentions? Is my heart able to convert all the dreams and inspirations I have received from You to make others’ life easier and supporting them to get closer to You with melting their pain and disappointment with the real quality of love? I used to sorry You, that it was only me who listened to You, and a lot of people had been more prepared for taking the path. I used to feel shame and discouragement. Later, I realized when You gave me a vivid dream, You are proud of me, You have always wanted to be proud of me.

I love all those radiating experiences and encounters with You. I love remembering to them. These dreams are my hopes and strength in the days of hardships and challenges.

Thank You, Father!

Your son,

 

-JD-

12 Days with God – Day Four

Join me for 12 days to spend more time with God, our Heavenly Parent.

This was the fourth day.

“How great are his signs,
how mighty his wonders!
His sovereignty is an eternal sovereignty,
his empire lasts from age to age.”
Daniel 3:100

 

This was the day of service.

This has been a long day. A long, but worthy one: trying to help others is always a good day.

You have always excelled in helping and supporting your children. Although, we have been neglecting You and Your help every so often, maybe almost all the time, You have never given up on us, You have never given up on me.

So, I tried to do the same, though my body showed every signs of weakness and it felt truly like a challenge, I focused on to excel. Keeping the true smile and good mood was not the easiest, and honestly, most of the times not the emotions but the dedication kept me going on, getting to know more people, being flexible in schedule and work. Arriving home, the most beloved ones also needed the greatest attention – as I was trained by You, no matter what and how happened, arriving home man always need to be on the top of his game, radiating and passing the love, light You have Blessed him with…

I had to learn my limitations, so, it was an earlier time to sleep, singing Your name.

Serving, living for the sake of others is the best way of healing, both for the world, both for man.

Thank you for inventing the principle of living for the sake of others.

Your son,

 

-JD-

12 Days with God – Day Three

Join me for 12 days to spend more time with God, our Heavenly Parent.

This is the third day.

“Enter by the narrow gate, since the road that leads to perdition is wide and spacious, and many take it; but it is a narrow gate and a hard road that leads to life, and only a few find it.”

Matthew 7:13-14

 

This is the day of being a human.

It shouldn’t be a shame, Father, to feel being a human. Yet, I’ve experienced today both parts in me: the one closer to You, and the other You did not create…

How life could have been? How everything would have turned out? How all the actions should have been? All the ifs, all the possibilities. I know, You have had all the calculations, measurementsm, precursors and preparations. Today, just like my ancestors, I used the free will and goose-stepped into misery. And I pulled You in…

…I didn’t mean to do that. The strangest thing is, that I have always had the clues, the patterns which might be called premonition, sharp senses or even wisdom. Despite all the good inside me, I chose ignorance, the very same tool detoured the greatest love to be completely manifested…

It’s not the first time, from my part, definately not the first. And I’m not fooling myself saying this was the last obnoxious vanity. Maybe today, because the night has fallen…

It’s been countless times, probably, when I chose the other side of the forking paths. Yet, You’ve always tried to trust me again. Again and again. And You kept giving me Your Blessings, constantly. Blessings, I have never expected, I could never dreamed of. You gave my life back, You gave my children, and You have saved them. You have given me the sight, I could see, I could hear, I could understand better, I could walk and run closer to You. There were times when I felt your hand in my hand…

I’m sorry, Father, I haven’t grown enough yet. I don’t want to make mistakes again, I don’t. I don’t want to be immature anymore. With the sunlight, a more mature life will emerge. I know it. I will show it to You, Father, I will.

Your son,

 

-JD-

12 Days with God – Day Two

Join me for 12 days to spend more time with God, our Heavenly Parent.

This is the second day.

“Thus heaven and earth were completed with all their array. On the seventh day God completed the work he had been doing. He rested on the seventh day after all the work he had been doing. God blessed the seventh day and made it holy, because on that day he had rested after all his work of creating. Such were the origins of heavens and earth when they were created.”

Genesis 2:1-4

 

This was the day of challenges.

It’s been a lot You’ve been going through, I tried not to make it harder for You, Father.

I kept my promise. I’m always trying to do so, and this one I’ve learned from You, Father. I remember, it was the hard way, as so often feels – almost always. I learned, experienced, live through: I’m not omnipotent. My body has limitations and well, it seemed, so often, my heart has limitations, too. That was one of the most surprising discovery. A worthy one. A painful one. I felt so often helpless, like somebody who has lost the way and can not keep his promise…

You’ve taught me, Father, You’ve taught me well.

Sometimes, in distant memories I can discover the path, how different everything was before I could finally start to understand You were teaching me.

I can’t change time, I can’t change space. Things what are temporary, still feel long, everlasting. Boundaries, barriers, burdens. All what barricades us from freedom and true love…

A challenging day, Father, this I had. But I kept my promises. Almost each of them. And I will try to make the next day better for my children, and for the people in the world.

You’ve taught me, Father, You’ve taught me well.

Your son,

 

-JD-

12 Days with God – Day One

Join me for 12 days to spend more time with God, our Heavenly Parent.

This is day one.

 

“The secret of the kingdom of God is given to you, but those who are outside everything comes in parables, so that they may see and see again, but not perceive; may hear and hear again, but not understand; otherwise they might be converted and be forgiven.”

Mark 4:10-11

 

This is a day of hope. A day of hope to do better, to make our relationship better again. I want, really want to make this better than ever. First, I need to make a confess: I was not doing all the efforts to live with you – I felt helpless a lot of times, though I have never abandoned hope. I am grateful for your commitment, You have never given up on me…

I used to think I know more than others about You, and I really wanted to “enlight” everyone. It turns out, the years were inevitable to come to learn how to listen and watch more. You taught me how to be more silent and self-aware. Sometimes in a very hard way, out of love. Being sick can be Your care and love, being challenged can be Your trust, when everything is so overwhelming and feels unbearable – these I have learned from You, though, I doubted when others shared their stories how all of these could be good and great. But You had the patience for me to see the reality…

And so I did. There were memorable times to feel being more and more alive, closer to You, experiencing the warmth and care. You have saved me and most importantly You have saved my children. When there was no hope, when there was no way to help, You saved my son, You saved my daughter. Just like you have been saving so many throughout the years of separation between You and us, lost ones…

My mouth can’t pray now. It’s weird, but not unusual these days. It is like we share our hearts without words. I can only pray for others, to have a chance for them to really get to know You.

Father, my body is tired, but my soul is awake.

I am looking forward to the next day with You!

Your son,

 

-JD-

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